a bedroom door stuck
congestion in summer
lost on an open road
serving in brunch rush
post a winter run
sudden bad news
realization of a lost moment
the onset of a test
a break up
death
…
life
how to reverse
go back in time
when being felt good
bring back what faded
find a balance
yet i find myself alone
out of breathe…
just swallow me in
take me away from this world of grim
washing doesn’t fix it nor do tricks unknown
i’m drowning in my feelings and presently alone
don’t want no pity just a one way ticket up
take me away from sadness cuz i’ve had enough
i’ve used up my strength, i’m done fighting
show me…
as a child, i never thought twice
an ultimate pleasure
relished without guilt
then came my 20s
‘don’t look’ ‘don’t touch’
my inner voice chimed
one bite never enough
then came my surgeries
deaths and a virus
both unrelated and not
i met my third baby
and i wanted to remember the joy
of being…
no need for patience
none accepted here
too many mirrors
and absence of fear
logic is your foe
envy, your friend
what comes too easy
eventually will end
ask the questions
speak up out loud
sight of red flag
then don’t be proud
trust is a vitrue
honesty, a gem
no reciprocation
means not a good friend
recently woke
loose foreign words
what someone meant
was not…
my voice drowned in the hustle of people and christmas lights
wandering in a lost town far from my heart’s desire
misunderstood reflection of a foggy brain
alcohol induced emotions concocted from a fooled mind
raw as my face on a stiff winter’s morning
uninvited stillness coated my bare skin
i surrendered to a familiar…
not just a chore
but what the heart wills
rhythm and rhyme
moments that fill
taking in life
embracing the grace
wanting to feel
skin and my face
longing for simple
true and divine
lips that will last
linger like wine
mystery and want
all that we seek
trying to survive
honor and keep
wishes we hold
soaring like wind
touch that will…
scared to let go
scared to let in
confused about life
confused about sin
decisions to make
choices to choose
logged into space
where lies no news
absence of eyes
empty of grace
wishes that fade
lines on my face
seeking revenge
hunger for life
once not removed
chances are twice
longing for peace
creation of mind
hoping to win
all that i find
it is what is so
time…
out of my life
absence of fights
gone are the exits
lonely expenses
now here to win
my heart on my skin
past the sacrifice
back is my life
out of the picture
no toxic fixture
way overdue
feeling quite new
Linda Adams ~ 2021
